They say we don’t have to always end up with someone we learned many things from. Forever is indeed a long time, and it sometimes is meant only for the memories — not the people. Though we can always make our own version of a ‘lifetime’ by letting their illusive presence fill every corner of our hearts, I chose to set us free instead, to go so far away and run toward the world we have always been dying to see.
They say love doesn’t always have to be about two hearts connected with fingers entwined. It can be simply about the incalculable amount of adoration and gratitude that not even love can define. I admire you in a way that I didn’t even have any idea where those feelings came from. It just naturally appeared whenever you were around, just as natural as the blush that suddenly reddened both my cheeks whenever you reached my hands.
I like the idea of having you around, but to set you free to explore the world you have always admired for its beauty and surprises is something I will forever find more elating. To see you smile while holding a bouquet you got from a random old lady you met at the amusement park, or to see you laugh at the silly jokes your friend made on a Friday evening after the tough day you went through to reach your dream; I want to witness how eager you are to live your life with no fret nor fear, only you and your whole brave soul that not even the strongest superhero character can conquer.
I always admire your constant love for the world and its good things, as much as I thank it for its kindness that eventually led our paths to cross. You have always been as big as the world, where in every inch of your skin exists a billion dreams waiting to be achieved. I can vividly see the world through your eyes, and how lovely it is to anticipate another surprise it has in store for us.
Though only for a moment, I am glad the world chose you and not anyone else.
This is not a goodbye, for we once again might cross paths, someday, somewhere else. The world will remain as big as you have always dreamed about, there are still dozens of places yet to explore; and may one among them all reunite us in a way we both never once thought of. My love will always surround you, as warm as summertime, where you can always find me in every scattered leaf during the fall and watch me bloom as the spring comes.
It’s always a pleasure to meet you, both for the first time and for the forthcoming encounters that not even the universe knows when. Thank you very much for the warmth you gave to someone whose broken heart used to barely be able to be fixed anymore. You ignited the dead spark inside me, which I used to think to forever better leave behind; thus, thank you, and I am glad it was you and not anyone else.
Thank you for holding my dreams so delicately that I could barely see any scratches, for bringing back my true self to life after decades of dormancy, and for taking very good care of yourself.
It will always be a pleasure to meet you. May your love for the world grow deeper as you get older, and may its surprises give you an abundance of heartfelt experiences to keep in mind that I will always admire you and your entire existence.
Until then, take care.