I guess I am not as over you as I thought that I was …. Maybe there’s still a piece of ours left in me, and I have yet to know how to unwrap it. Maybe this whole time, I am just fooling myself saying that I have let go…

“But if we loved again, I swear I’d love you right.” What about keep walking forward and never looking back? Find a love that is better and love them right. I have always wanted you to let go of everything I have put behind: the love that once was there…

Aku suka dengar kamu bercerita tentang seekor kera yang membodohi kawanan buaya, atau tentang pohon jati yang katamu sering merintih sambil gugurkan daunnya. Aku suka dengar kamu mengoceh tentang padat lalu lintas ibukota, atau tentang atasan di perusahaan yang acap kali bertindak semena-mena. …

Once in three hours, there will be several wagons of train arrive, picking up its awaiting passengers to take them somewhere as they wish. Some might have missed it, some might have waited for it to come, and some might not even come to the station due to some reasons…

I hate that we have to keep laughing and being strong in front of each other, then crying when nobody is watching. I hate that we have to keep living and that life will always go on no matter how many losses we have to bear with. …

Sometimes, part of me still unbearably longs for you, still trying to unearth the whys, envisaging the what ifs; and when it happens, the hatred grows even bigger. Not gonna talk about pride anymore as I’m lifting it up, I’m putting all the pieces back together. I never regret giving you everything even if it all eventually was thrown away. The world may hurt and turn its back on you one day, but the love I left will stay, serenading the love songs we used to sing back then when life was so much loveable — only if I am allowed to say.

Maybe it’s just to keep our distance forever, or maybe to prevent another encounter — whatever. All the fortune teller told was about me to let go, to stop wishing for nothing… … but I’m done running. The peace you told me to make, I used to question it a…

Di rumah yang mati-matian kita bangun bersama hingga pagi buta, aku jadi yang pertama angkat kaki dari sana. Aku jadi yang pertama putuskan pergi padahal kamu bilang masih banyak cerita yang belum temui penghujungnya. Katamu masih banyak tempat-tempat yang belum dikunjungi berdua. …

As Seraphina feels the embrace starts to get loose, the moment she realises that Arthur’s hands are no longer there wrapping her waist as well as the hair that she can no longer smell the scent, taking two steps backwards should have not been a hard thing to do, shouldn’t…